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Love this movie! And this part of the movie gives me the sniffles right now... I miss Adam. How can I not? He was such a constant part of my life, we shared so much and yet so little. I was an open book, yet he shared as little as possible. He knew what made me cry, he'd make be laugh and I returned the favor. At least I hope I did. I miss his face on mine. I miss how I yelled at him and he'd apologize for upsetting me. I never thought I'd have this grouchy giant so well trained. Yet not trained enough. His rebellious soul pushed me away when I got too close, yet he needed me while I wanted him. I miss how he'd make me laugh when all I wanted to do was cry. I miss how he'd let me hide under his sheets when I was sad, never asking questions, understanding that I needed to be alone. I miss how he'd rub the cramps out of my legs, but I don't miss being taken for granted. I don't miss how he'd brush off the intense feelings I had for him. I don't miss his late night calls that always ended in argument. I don't miss being sad over him and him never realizing that he had caused it. I don't miss playing second fiddle to everyone around him, when I always tried to make him feel as special as possible. I guess he'll never know how much I loved him and cared for him.